Monday, April 13, 2009
It is the worst feeling ever when you work hard for something only to be let down or ruin it in just one day. I know you say I don't need it but I am trying to fix myself all around and in two days i ruined that in multiple ways. I need to calm down sometimes because I honestly blow things out of proportion and then just blow up. It is so frustrating when you don't really know how you want people to react but you know that what actually happened isn't what you had in mind. I keep pushing hoping something will come out of his mouth that will fix it but it doesn't. Even his apologies sound like ways to just look past the situation. It is fixed now but I let it happen too often.
On another note: the feeling of being forgotten washes over me sometimes; especially in the dorm. It is amazing how you can go from feeling so happy to feeling like you don't actually belong.
bamboozle: two weeks.
